Sunday, 29 March 2015

Dear Dr Gill

Dear Dr Gill,

I used to think I was doing alright. But then I started receiving notifications from Facebook informing me that my profile is a mere 45% complete. Now every day is a  struggle to come to terms with all the time I've wasted, and all that I've left un-done.

I didn’t plan to end up like this, living this half-life. I’m sure you know how it is. You’re young and you think “I’ll give it a miss today; nothing to worry about, I’ll fill out the rest tomorrow.” But the days became weeks, the weeks into months, and the months into years. Every day that passes makes it harder to get going. Now inertia has me in its vice-like grip, which tightens day by day.

Now all I want to do is lie under the sheets listening to “Time” by Pink Floyd, and stare at that taunting, unfilled, “Ryan, where did you go to high school?” box. Where indeed? I don’t even remember anymore.

I feel like I’ve wasted my life. Yes, I have my health, voluntary work, and a job earning 60k a year - which admittedly supports my wife and three kids pretty well. But what’s the point? 45%. That’s the only number that matters.

Ryan, 34

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